CA Podcast #22 – Inside The Mind of Nick Delmacy (On Dating & Being Closeted)

By Cypher Avenue | Posted Sep 13 2014 | 50 Comments  

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Brehs, we present to you a new episode of the CYPHER AVENUE PODCAST where you’ll hear us give updates, engage in heated topic debates, interviewing interesting homosexual men of color and us verbally adding on to the articles posted on the website.

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In this podcast, Cypher Avenue founder Nick Delmacy has a Netflix night with listeners and confesses his personal thoughts on being Closeted, if he is Internally Homophobic, why he’s never been in a Gay Long-Term Relationship and much more!

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  1. SB3000 | September 13th, 2014
    +4

    Wow, we got @nick opening up and living in his truth! Lol

    Nah, for real tho, it was good to hear you being so much less guarded. That’s wasup bro!

    Now stop bein a sideline hoe and go be somebody’s ‘good black man.’ Lol

  2. Jamie | September 13th, 2014
    0

    Wow…Nick…that was kinda depressing. But I can relate to you, as someone who has no desire to be in a relationship. I role solo.

  3. Jonathan E | September 13th, 2014
    +1

    Thank you for being you. This podcast and the truth of who you are and how you live, perceive, act, and react to life’s issues is a gift to men me. Your efforts and website are appreciated.Thanks for sharing.

  4. SB3
    African King | September 13th, 2014
    +1

    Thanks for opening up @nick. I know that as someone who has been supporting Discreet City into the transition of becoming Cypher Avenue that I really appreciate what you all are doing. Keep it up.

  5. Dre G | September 13th, 2014
    +1

    I usually relate more to things Ocky says ,but now I see that me and you are coming from the same place about a few things.

    As someone who’s been the man on the side before,the one pro I see of the situation is the guy is pretty much admitting to you that he can’t be trusted.It’s nice to know where you stand.

    • hannibal
      Hannibal | September 13th, 2014
      0

      I cant even believe I’m saying this but I actually find myself more in line with Ocky on things as well.

  6. HotChocolate | September 13th, 2014
    +1

    Listening to some of the podcasts and reading your posts on the website, I’ve had this odd attraction to you (kinda lame I know, but hey)…you can’t imagine how pleased I was to see this post. Good one Nick, now I just have to conjure an image in my mind…I bet you had quite a few drinks before this.

  7. Ocky Williams | September 13th, 2014
    +1

    This shit was DOPE!

  8. hannibal
    Hannibal | September 13th, 2014
    +1

    What the F**K was this? I thought we were going to get insight into his peen size and stroke game and instead we get a bunch of talk about complex stuff and thinking stuff. *leaves page*

    • PrincetonG | September 15th, 2014
      0

      I know u are being sarcastic and I did enjoy the deep stuff in this podcast. But I woulnt mind knowing the other stuff u mentioned as well. I wanna see a picture Nick lol.

  9. Jss Pss | September 14th, 2014
    +1

    Another good show, keep em coming. I definitely can relate to your life story and thanks for being so candid (I know it’s not always easy). You sound very much like my ex with the commitment issues and contentment being a “loner” lol.

  10. NextLifetime
    nextlifetime | September 14th, 2014
    +1

    I really can appreciate this podcast it was a good listen. However I hope that if @nick does get into a relationship I hope it really works out cuz idk him but I just feel like he deserves a good one. Much love to you man.

  11. alton
    NYCforEVER | September 14th, 2014
    +1

    Awesome Podcast, my dude. I definitely feel you with the “self sabotaging” thing. I have a very bad habit of doing that ‘ish myself.

  12. TheEdge
    COSHAMO | September 15th, 2014
    +1

    Nick is the quintessential homophobe. This was moving and had me rethinking some things about myself and who I am and who I’ve become. It was revealing – “I’ve been the side piece in many situations, not by choice, per se’, but once I was in it I was like, let it flow, go with it, I need to get my rocks off too, but I’m not a hoe though.” That was a mouthful, but it is reality. I can’t be the side piece anymore. One thing about being the sidepiece is that you never seek out to be the sidepiece, it just kinda happens. 10 years from now I hope you are in a different space – you will be, but I hope it is a good space. It’s weird though. Nick is attracted to fem guys, or that who he seems to attract. Being gay is a trip ain’t it. You’d never know Nick likes fem booty. LOL j/k. Most everything you spoke about in this podcast I already knew about you. This is your persona, it’s actually how you come across – arrogant. LOL. You can’t see it, but others can. Nick the Nihilist with an ego on steroids. LOL. The music was dope though. Can I get a music list. Some of those cuts I was really lovin’. A very good creative way to reveal deep personal ramblings and going ons. Can’t wait for part II.

    • alton
      NYCforEVER | September 15th, 2014
      +1

      LOL This is funny, bro. I personally wouldn’t go so far as to say Nick is “arrogant”, but he does come across a lil’ “hoity toity” at times LMAO. Also, and no offense, Nick…but I don’t think you’re AS comfortable with your sexuality as you say. Just an observation, when you refer to yourself as gay, the inflection in your voice changes drastically and comes across as madd uncomfortable. I only say this ’cause where I tend to agree a lot more with Ocky on subject matter, I feel like me and you have a more “similar” personality, more “guarded”, and I used to have tghat same inflection when I referred to myself as anythign gay, even to other gay guys. I really just got over that not too long ago. You’re like the “Ian Shrager” to Ocky’s “Steve Rubell”.

      On a side note, dude, the whole comin’ out to your parents thing, I totally agree. At 37yo I’m not havin’ a “sit down” with my moms. I might tell my dad just to piss him off (if I ever decide to reach out to him) but moms doesn’t need to know if she doesn’t already, at this point. LOL

      • SB3
        African King | September 15th, 2014
        0

        I will support @nick and say that as far as accepting yourself it is an ongoing journey. I have really faced my sexuality going on almost 3 years now and I will be 25 in November (#Scorpio). I am happy I’ve come this far and gotten more comfortable. I think new situations come up in everyone of our lives regarding our sexuality whether that’s with family or meeting new people and so on.

      • Nick Delmacy | September 15th, 2014
        0

        Inflection in my voice?! Seriously with this? LOL Nah, I’m very comfortable with my sexuality…I actually go to more gay events, parties, functions and get-togethers than most guys who regular this site…I run a popular gay website, for Pete’s sake.

        If anything, I have more reservations about the expanding popularity of the website and being a gay persona than anything. I don’t want to be known as a “gay” anything. I don’t like the labels, especially regarding sexuality and sex. I have no desire to be a gay or black mascot. I thought I made that clear in the podcast but I guess not.

        I need all of the guys who keep urging me to be a gay float in the parade to man-up and step out there instead.

        • SB3
          African King | September 15th, 2014
          +1

          lol that’s like asking MLK to have had someone else go before him in a movement for civil rights. this is your calling and it’s time to step up to the plate! lol

          • Nick Delmacy | September 15th, 2014
            0

            All jokes aside, I’m no Dr King…also, he wanted that spotlight, I do not…I like playing the behind the scenes…Its your turn to step up, sir. You can’t seriously be urging me to be a team mascot when even you are not even showing up to the games.

            • SB3
              African King | September 15th, 2014
              0

              @nick don’t worry bro I got your back. It’s like that classic buddy action flick. You go first but just know I got you covered lmfao!

  13. Chingyworld | September 15th, 2014
    +3

    Ok this one was different. The clips added another layer to the podcast> good job

  14. PH Howard | September 15th, 2014
    +6

    in an odd way i rather like the fact that you don’t show your face, even tho i would luv to see the cute face behind the sexy voice, by not showing your face your telegraphing to the world that this site is not about any one individual, this site is providing an outlet for non assuming gay men to discover who they are, your helping us to find our voice.

    it’t because of this site i finally found the courage to come out to my best friend of 15 yrs, my family well that’s a bridge i have get to cross but i’m getting there. you guys are changing lives maybe even saving a few. just speaking from the heart this site has made me change my would view on how i see my self and other gay men more broadly. i’m gay and i’m proud to say that for the first time in my life.

    • Nick Delmacy | September 15th, 2014
      0

      Thanks for sharing this, man. Really appreciated! Glad we could be of some help!

      • PH Howard | September 15th, 2014
        0

        you have your really really have, for the first time in a long time i don’t feel quite so alone, and at the end of the day, we are all searching for something to belong to, because who want’s to be forever alone, We are all here in this life to help each other grow into our greatness.

    • Rod Turpin
      Rod! | September 19th, 2014
      0

      Congrats! Being able to identify yourself is a huge step in the right direction (I remember how hard it was for me to call myself gay at one point….just saying the words took a lot).

  15. Jamie | September 22nd, 2014
    0

    Hey, what is the dialogue playing at the end at around 1:08:30? It has nice ambient music in the background.

  16. Raymond "The Shining" Wright II | October 4th, 2014
    0

    This podcast was the shit man, literally the best one out of all the ones I listened to. I think I just grew a little crush on you @nick lol but for real tho, I loved how deep it was and how you just gave apart of yourself to us. That’s what made it so dope.

    • SBthe13,000 | October 4th, 2014
      0

      Have several seats! @nick is mine once he moves to ny

    • Nick "Living Dead" Delmacy | October 4th, 2014
      0

      Thanks for the great feedback @rj1994! Makes me want to do more!

    • hannibal
      Hannibal | October 4th, 2014
      0

      *Rolling eyes* perhaps you and @thatguy can have a duel of thirst over nick

      • Dre of the Dead | October 4th, 2014
        0

        nah,Im trying to get in on a threesome with Ocky and PrinceD

        • hannibal
          Hannibal | October 4th, 2014
          0

          You have to bring your id so we can confirm your legal and then i would pay good money to see that mauling

          • Raymond "The Shining" Wright II | October 4th, 2014
            0

            oh my goodness lol

          • Mike "IT" Brown | October 4th, 2014
            0

            Lmao. I think that’s the first time the word mauling turned me on

            • Dre of the Dead | October 4th, 2014
              0

              @madb86 So you like it rough???I’m cool with that.

          • Dre of the Dead | October 4th, 2014
            0

            That’s fine.I don’t mind being watched.

            • Mike "IT" Brown | October 4th, 2014
              0

              Oh word @thatguy ? I propose to you and this is how you do me?

              • Dre of the Dead | October 4th, 2014
                0

                Who said you weren’t going to be a part of this?You say orgy,I say double date.

                • Mike "IT" Brown | October 4th, 2014
                  0

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                • Raymond "The Shining" Wright II | October 4th, 2014
                  0

                  that’s literally my face this whole time lol

        • Ocky "The Thing" Williams | October 4th, 2014
          0

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          • hannibal
            Hannibal | October 4th, 2014
            0

            I can see the scenario now. Little @Thatguy arrives home from school. Daddy Ocky is waiting for him in the living rokm. He ask to see thatguys report car. Thatguy has an.F in something. Daddy Ocky calls out to Daddy Prince D….”he got an F. I think we should show him a real F.”….this thing.writes itsf

            • Dre of the Dead | October 4th, 2014
              0

              I can pass for 30-ish,so that may not work out.Points for trying to incorporate RP.

              • hannibal
                Hannibal | October 4th, 2014
                0

                You forget i know what you look like. You barely pass for over 18

              • Nick "Living Dead" Delmacy | October 4th, 2014
                0

                Holup, you can pass for 30 even though you’re only 23?! So you’re like Morgan Freeman, then…oh okay…
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                • Dre of the Dead | October 4th, 2014
                  0

                  @hannibal tell @Nick this is accurate.Just trim his hair down and you’ve got me.It all used to be a drag for me,but now I embrace my mature looks.

            • Mike "IT" Brown | October 4th, 2014
              0

              I think you just thought up a new podcast for the site.

          • Dre of the Dead | October 4th, 2014
            0

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      • Nick "Living Dead" Delmacy | October 4th, 2014
        +1

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