Damn. I relate to the suffering in silence, praying the gay away, and feeling alone aspects for sure. To me, gayness is a construct developed and perpetuated by white gay males for their own financial, political, and social gain; I don't identify as gay. I identify as same gender loving (sgl). I wish that we'd get to the point where sgl people are not seen as abnormal, but simply understood as humans trying to just BE!